“Cynicism at its root is a refusal to believe that God is in control and God is good.“
- Jennie Allen
Thursday was hard.
I thought I had prepared myself for the worst case scenario. But once I got off the phone with my Drs. office with my GD diagnoses, I lost it. It seems there’s always been easier explanations to life’s challenges. Simpler solutions and lighter problems. But that’s not how it is this time…
The night mentally was the worst, and my sweet husband was the backbone that held me together. I hate the unknown. I hate having no control. And I hate that this is my reality till our Felicity is here in my arms.
But what I hate more, is believing the lie that all these things mean nothing to my Jesus.
Today’s a new day, a new chance to have a better mindset and give it to God and let it go!
The fact of the matter is: GOD IS STILL GOOD. He still loves me and the sweet baby girl growing inside me. He knows my needs, and he knows what she needs too. While the future seems scary, I know it’s once again God reminding me to trust His will, His timing, and His power.
So whatever the next 9 weeks means, I know Gods got it, and always has. 💓#gestationaldiabetes
Xoxo, Shantel
